Day 30

I haven’t had a chip or a cookie in 5 weeks today. Crazy! The sad part is after 30 days I haven’t really learned anything from this fast. Maybe expect the fact I do have control over food. Or I have control when I want to over food. Because this ice cream I just had says differently. I went to weight watchers today for the first time since March. Kinda hated it. I wish I could go back to my Tuesday meetings but that would involve me getting off before 6:30 which would involve me getting up before 7:40 and getting to work earlier than 8:30. So yes, I’m lazy. I make excuses like well my boss is weird about hours when really I’m sure she would understand the weight-loss thing once a week, hopefully.

On the other hand looks like the Tuesday night leader changed from my old leader, so who’s to say I will even like the new lady or man.

Food for thought not that I need any other kind of food in my body. I need some exercise for thought. No that I’m rambling I’ll get back to work.

HARRY POTTER COMES OUT TODAY! AHH!!!!!!!!!!

The show must go on...

So decided to pass on the major pasta binge I was planning to go on last night but instead attended Aqua Kickboxing. Despite the fact that as a black woman we don't often participate in activities that could possibly get our hair wet. Which i totally did but it ended up being pretty fun and was a good way to take my mind off of the oh so unfair thing called life.

So I working on moving past yesterdays stress and back to me trying to be healthy. While I would love to pick up the pasta binge I wanted to have today, I have decided on making fish instead. My new obsession, outside of vintage suitcases, is making things taste deep fried with out actually dropping them in grease. So tonight's endeavor is crispy fish and sweet potato fries=Yum! I got the idea from Tyler Florence one day I laying in bed having a Food Network/Cooking channel watching session.

I take my fish, which is typically tilapia is seasoned with seasoning salt and garlic powder, and coat in in flour, then an egg wash, followed by panko bread crumbs. Then you let it set for about 10 mins to let the panko set. Then I take a cookie sheet drizzle it with olive oil and place in the oven, which is set on whatever temp my fries cook at. Once the oil is nice and hot I place the fish on the pan, if it sizzles i know its good to go, and bake for about ten minutes.

My fish comes out extremely crispy on both sides and it just as good as deep fried. If I want to mix it up I just change the seasoning I put on my fish, sometimes I do lemon herb or add Parmesan to the panko.

All this writing is making me hungry I can't wait to get home and make it!

Haven't seen you in awhile

So, update on my progress=none! Still thinking about food all the time. I've been going through a lot of stress lately and that doesn't seem to help! At this current moment I stalking my mother who forgot to tell me that my grandmother is having heart surgery tomorrow. So my blood pressure is all high and I'm having a hot flash. I'm at work and I'm trying to to flip the hell out and my best friend and support system is not texting me back. BAD DAY GUYS!

Times like this I really want some comforting food. My usual go to food is chips at a moment like this but since I've given them up for 40 days, my next option would be pasta. I'm thinking penne vodka or mac and cheese.

Now the me who wants to be healthy is saying hey maybe to clear your mind you should go to aqua kickboxing instead. I mean after all you are 260ish pounds and your grandmother is having heart surgery maybe you should not be trying to end up on the hospital bed next to her.

On top of this internal food debate I feel like I'm catching a cold. I think I may need a personal day tomorrow. On the other hand maybe, I should come to work so that I can have something to distract me. Though since I haven't been doing much a work lately that isn't much of a distraction.

I know this whole rant seems a little bit bipolar but it is making me feel better to write all of this out. After reading 1 Peter 1:20-21 I'm reminded that my hope and faith are in GOD. I'm learning to trust his most capable hands, but I still plan to have a word with him in a little bit.

How the Story Began........

I definitely think I may have a problem. No matter what I’m doing or where I am there is only one thing on my mind……FOOD! I’m constantly thinking of new things to cook or different restaurants to try. I can watch food network or the cooking channel all day. I really love cooking especially things I’ve never made before. The thought of trying something I never had before excites me to no end. I love to snack and there seems to be an abundance of free ones where I work. I can sometimes here them calling my name or imagine how good it would taste in my mouth. I FREAKING LOVE FOOD! Sure they say you can have everything in moderation but that’s not my style. I like to indulge, even when I’m full all I can think about is the next thing I’m going to cook or eat. I definitely have the live to eat mentality rather than an eat to live one.
As I sit at work one thing is on my mind. Food! I’m about to be 23 this month and I weigh 265 lbs. I decided to join a weight loss program and after 14 weeks at it I’ve lost 6.6lbs. Pretty SAD! I have no will power and an extreme love for food. So it makes it really hard to stick to any weight-loss plan. Seeing that a lot of weight related diseases run in my family I think its time I get serious about doing something about my weight. Unfortunately this self diagnosed food addiction I have has been putting a damper on my plan. This is definitely going to be a journey but I’m on a mission. I’m sure there will be some bumps in the road but I’m ready for the challenge. For years I've been ashamed that I have a problem, but who doesn’t? Mine just happen to be food!