So, update on my progress=none! Still thinking about food all the time. I've been going through a lot of stress lately and that doesn't seem to help! At this current moment I stalking my mother who forgot to tell me that my grandmother is having heart surgery tomorrow. So my blood pressure is all high and I'm having a hot flash. I'm at work and I'm trying to to flip the hell out and my best friend and support system is not texting me back. BAD DAY GUYS!
Times like this I really want some comforting food. My usual go to food is chips at a moment like this but since I've given them up for 40 days, my next option would be pasta. I'm thinking penne vodka or mac and cheese.
Now the me who wants to be healthy is saying hey maybe to clear your mind you should go to aqua kickboxing instead. I mean after all you are 260ish pounds and your grandmother is having heart surgery maybe you should not be trying to end up on the hospital bed next to her.
On top of this internal food debate I feel like I'm catching a cold. I think I may need a personal day tomorrow. On the other hand maybe, I should come to work so that I can have something to distract me. Though since I haven't been doing much a work lately that isn't much of a distraction.
I know this whole rant seems a little bit bipolar but it is making me feel better to write all of this out. After reading 1 Peter 1:20-21 I'm reminded that my hope and faith are in GOD. I'm learning to trust his most capable hands, but I still plan to have a word with him in a little bit.
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